Endings

I am done with High School and I don't know what to think about that.
Nothing feels any different yet.
My mom is watching old movies in the other room. The music and attitude of those movies was so much better than those of today.

Countdowns

6 days left of high school.
18 days until Apple Hill.
71 days left until Syracuse.
104 days left of being 17.

It smells like summer
out there,
too bad I can't enjoy it yet.

It's been 10 days since my last post.

Hi internet. I am at home on my couch, sniffling. I had to go home from school because I had an allergic reaction and could not stop sneezing.
Larry's on a walkabout.
Netta is home!
I'm gonna make some popcorn and eat it maybe.

Yesterday was beautiful!
Lydia and Sarah and I drove about and ate good food and
watched animated wonder and humor
and saw the benefit show
and laughed and laughed and laughed
in the sunshine.

I am typing this outside in the sun wearing a silly white hat so I can see.
:]

Last night I
fell asleep
wishing I had someone's
sturdy arms around me.

It was cold and
I had been thinking about the horror of
human nature
and the rain was relentless
and I felt so small and so frail.

Last year on a day like today I felt loved
and maybe happy
but for the past while it's all been tedium
tedium
and discontentment.

I blame everyone and the world but mostly I blame me.

Love...

...is kinda blurry.