I don't have my life together. I'm not treating people with sympathy, not eating regularly, not sleeping in understandable patterns, not trying or working. This isn't irregular in my trainwreck of a life, though generally I go through the motions with a bit more grace and care. It's frustrating that the apathy of living in an underwhelming and disheartening environment has carried over to a climate where there are so many challenges and people to appreciate.
At its most basic, my grades are reflecting all of this. Somehow I've stopped really caring, though I should just be beginning. Truly I need to maintain a good GPA and be really learning. There should not be any excuses, yet I am making many. I'm clearly an A student, which sounds demeaning but is true...

Countdowns

6 days left of high school.
18 days until Apple Hill.
71 days left until Syracuse.
104 days left of being 17.