Tired and also a fuckup, but at least I think I'm a good friend...

Been doing exciting things with exciting people
and I still feel atrophied and stagnant and
I wish I could appreciate all this beauty but it is
so hard even to keep my eyes open sometimes.

"With a broken sink for a face
and a head that
just takes up space,
he's not half right, he's not
half right."

This week is probably going to be hard.
I am not able to:
have my viola lesson
see my therapist
go to Symphony Pro Musica
go to art
So I'll probably be grumpy.
I hope my friends start noticing me again.

Exciting things happening after this week:
Marina!
!!!
BosMUN
and, therefore, Chris
Knitting
Sleep

Yeah?

Maybe if I think that it was foolish and meaningless than I'll be totally over it.
He didn't really love me, we didn't really have something worthwhile.